I don’t miss you.

I don’t miss you. I miss love. I miss loving and being loved back. I miss loving someone and feeling safe in that love, like they could never do any harm. I miss waking up excited to see someone I love. I miss starting my day with your peaceful expression next to me, or timing […]

Inner Monologue to J

I don’t want our meetings to be Q&A sessions about our personal lives, and I don’t want to be tied down with obligation as a volunteer tutor to listen to you get out a week’s worth of conversation. I knew you were lonely when we met, and that you didn’t have any English-speaking friends. Today […]

Confronting J: A Rambling Practice

J*, Let me stop you right there. For the past couple of our meetings, I’ve been noticing some things about your attitude towards me, and before we continue, I need to set some things straight. You do not know me through my parents, and I do not know you through your child. You need to […]

White

I’m loving the fog in this city. The sky is spotlessly white, with a grey tint. The whiteness with which it illuminates causes all the colours to pop, and everything appears with more depth. I feel like I’m seeing everything for the first time, and I can see why: everything looks ever so slightly different, […]

It’ll Be Okay

I think I’ll be okay. I think the very fact that I’m constantly thinking about things and thinking about myself – aware and reflective – instead of acting rashly and passionately, outlines that. I haven’t jumped off the cliff yet, and no matter how much I whine, I don’t think I ever will. I’ll keep […]