I don’t miss you. I miss love. I miss loving and being loved back. I miss loving someone and feeling safe in that love, like they could never do any harm. I miss waking up excited to see someone I love. I miss starting my day with your peaceful expression next to me, or timing […]
The year of exploration. […] The year of discovery.
I don’t want our meetings to be Q&A sessions about our personal lives, and I don’t want to be tied down with obligation as a volunteer tutor to listen to you get out a week’s worth of conversation. I knew you were lonely when we met, and that you didn’t have any English-speaking friends. Today […]
J*, Let me stop you right there. For the past couple of our meetings, I’ve been noticing some things about your attitude towards me, and before we continue, I need to set some things straight. You do not know me through my parents, and I do not know you through your child. You need to […]
I’m loving the fog in this city. The sky is spotlessly white, with a grey tint. The whiteness with which it illuminates causes all the colours to pop, and everything appears with more depth. I feel like I’m seeing everything for the first time, and I can see why: everything looks ever so slightly different, […]
I think I’ll be okay. I think the very fact that I’m constantly thinking about things and thinking about myself – aware and reflective – instead of acting rashly and passionately, outlines that. I haven’t jumped off the cliff yet, and no matter how much I whine, I don’t think I ever will. I’ll keep […]
I just want to eat and eat until my stomach walls reach their limit and my body finally gives up, or sit down and do nothing but smoke on and on until my brain cells one by one flicker out and I’m finally gone. Pretty much the most passive ways to self-destruct. Because as dramatic […]